I have no idea what went wrong, and it's worse than knowing My heart for the first time is revolving as fast as my thoughts But I don't care Why don't I care? There's nothing that seems to matter anymore And there's nothing left for me to say Hold my hands, don't let me get through this alone It feels like something will go horribly wrong I don't care, my self stare fades away, crushed Crossing my fingers to shove it away, fading into nothing Must move on, must go away Dysfunction When did my innocence leave? When did I become so fucking hopeless? I can't remember the last time I felt calm Why don't I care? There's nothing that seems to matter anymore And there's nothing left for me to say Hold my hands Watery eyes, cracked lips A shadow that walks past the crowd Trying to create something meaningful to myself Nothing feels right A shadow that walks alone Devoured by a thought Fear that never seems to stop Alone In my thoughts I hear them call And I'm feeling hoarse Can't recall a situation where I stay wherever I really want to be My self-esteem makes it hard for me to realize that I can do better Why don't I fucking care? Is it a lie that I don't care? There's nothing that makes me more anxious And I know I can do better than this