Even if we're far
I won't know the start
To avoid all cause
Made by you and these locks
And I saw the way you've been
Break ties to descend
Avoid me and all your friends
But you've gone deep now and regret
I love it all when you tell me we could fight
You put me through it all and I'm tired of the nights
Telling me the worth of the things that should've worked
And I'm reaching to my limit, so I'll put us through the dirt
You can't tell me that you love and feel opposed
Kill off all the sight that we could've made arose
And I'm limping from the garden that we planned to grow our own
Nothing ever feels alive or content anymore
Blood on my hands, kill him to be okay
I don't consent you being on my last day
All of your friends left you in this abyss
Mold on the walls, let me decay like this
I wanna kill myself
Oh-oh my god
My entire frame is aching
I don't feel safe
K-k-kill myself
Oh my god
I fucking hate this feeling
I don't wanna be like this
Fuck my life, I wanna kill myself
I don't take advice from someone who can't tell
That I try so hard to make things right
But I'm a fucked up no trust
Always fucking mad (hi)
She wanted me to love her but I still think about my past
I give away my body knowing I won't get it back
I got so many questions and you have all the answers
Why should I trust you when your someone I can't earn
You thought I would break down but I'm only wounded
Tell your man to stay down or he'll be executed
Looking for an object to keep myself alive
Running in with bare hands hoping I don't die
When I fall down, you cannot come with me
The place I hide, you wouldn't wanna be
Slow down I feel your breath on my neck
He's getting way too close
I'll twat the bitch in the head
I don't care
If you love him instead
There's only one way out
He's only happy in bed
I'll molotov his house
If he gets too close I'll burn his shit to the ground
So stop talking loud
Struggling to walk when I knock him out
Stay close to me and don't leave yet
You're all I have, it's no secret
What if this was the best for me?
So obsessed with him, swear it's blasphemy
Pain plant another day, another fucking mystery
Her payment was a fuck, no, we turning history
Tell me if it was luck or just ambiguity?
I bagged a fucking whore-ore needs some purity
Maybe just an eye sore, oh, I said
Hello, don't go, I love you
Oh no, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, please don't
I don't like you anymore
Could you just fuck off away from me?
Never answer when you call
God, you're just so toxic to everything
Do you hear me when I speak?
You just act like you're so lovely
Never said a word but you talking like you're over me
I guess that I don't know, but these moments made me wanna leave
If you wanna try, we-
Give me a breather, give me some space
Watch as I slowly peel off my face
I've never been holy, set my soul ablaze
I could never heal her, that was a mistake
I'm hurting myself for some shit I made
Therefore, I destroy my health, that's how I'll pay
These drugs get me nauseous, they make me decay
I'm carving your name on my arm with a-
All alone, can't be seen in here
Got a message from my brother, he gonna leave it here
Dump his body in the trunk, whatever shit I really want to
And we count this shit as a plus two
Hide away myself so we won't talk if you don't want to
Seeing green is a bust too
You won't catch a loaded gun if you were drawn too
I was sitting by myself, then alarms drew
Threw you something just to digest
I don't wanna talk to you 'cause every time you're upset
Used to fuck until the sunset
All these bands on my dresser
If I fucked up, does that still make me lesser?
I'll still throw you in the dirt
Came up off the ground, there's some nights that it all hurt
Do you hate me now?
I still hate my town
I'll keep you around you're the only one that worked
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'Cause you don't want it to end
So it's gonna end with me
Sing along with this hook 'cause I'm not gonna repeat
I'm tryna put it to sleep but you keep waking me up
I don't wanna get back so just leave me to choke
Stop trying to tell me that we are just fine
We've had our moments and that was our time
Foot on the gas and 80 on the dash
I'm not gonna be back so leave me in the past