Someone's standing at my front door, telling me that staying sober is the biggest chore I kinda' think they're right Can't take another night of being trapped in New York without a little light I just wanna quit living like this, too many times before I think a storm is rolling in, but staying home 'such a bore I won't go crazy at night I'll make it back here alright But something tells me that I'm just saying that for some piece of mind And as soon as I step foot outside it's clear that something isn't right I'm feening for some self destruction gotta hold on for dear life I need to grow up too, but I don't wanna So I drink for two, until the sun's up It's getting hardеr to think straight now, 'cause I'm coming back down after whatevеr I took I need to grow up too, but I don't wanna 'Cause this fire feel's good, just like the summer So then I'll burn and then crash, and I'm turning to ash I guess I'll be the one that held the match But, I woke up and still feel drunk I've done this too many time's this month (Yeah) And I don't know who's next to me but she's fast asleep Yeah, yeah, yeah I need to smoke before I go and pray that I can dip through the window (the window) I'm tripping over my own feet it's too dark to see Yeah, yeah, yeah There's empty bottles on the floor And [?] dance all over the hotel door What the hell did I get myself into last night I keep on losing my hold on life I need to grow up too, but I don't wanna So I drink for two, until the sun's up It's getting harder to think straight now, 'cause I'm coming back down after whatever I took I need to grow up too, but I don't wanna 'Cause this fire feel's good, just like the summer So then I'll burn and then crash, and I'm turning to ash I guess I'll be the one that held the match Don't look at me that way I'm not the crazy one They tell me I'm insane but they don't get it 'Cause they can't see through the stains from my past So I look at them and laugh Don't look at me that way I'm not the crazy one They tell me I'm insane but they don't get it 'Cause they can't see through the stains from my past So I look back and I laugh I need to grow up too, but I don't wanna So I drink for two, until the sun's up It's getting harder to think straight now, 'cause I'm coming back down after whatever I took I need to grow up too, but I don't wanna 'Cause this fire feel's good, just like the summer So then I'll burn and then crash, and I'm turning to ash I know I'll be the one that held the match