Yo, I just need some time, I'm tryna think straight
I just need a moment in my own space
Ask me how I'm doin', I say "okay," yeah
But ain't that what we all say
Sometimes I think back to the old days
In the pointless conversations with the old me
Yeah, back when my momma used to hold me
I wish somebody woulda told me
It's been a whole year and a couple months
It takes 18 months... to get over love
I'm nearly there but it feels like a fucking mission
Mission impossible but time heals every mission
I swear... and back then what the fuck is heartbreak
That shit was funny now I'm sitting with a heartache
This shit is real got me laying flat, pancake
Flip me over with a pan, chingings in my back
I'm shaking like an earthquake
Really? they called her prestige
Light skinned girl, from northwest she was pristine
K K***'s daughter, I didn't know that when I met her
But that's all I heard cos no one ever called her by her real name
It's crazy, everybody wanted her it's scary
For shitty thoughts and reasons and that's why they moving lazy
But me I put my all in spoke the truth; I done it daily
But what she put me through you woulda thought I was in the navy
Look, see I been with her before I started rap
I was kicking ball, running tracks now I'm writing tracks
Gave her everything I could I guess I was a simp
Mama raised me right but where I'm from I'm walking with a limp
Everybody's different so I guess I trusted her
Hundred in this ting and I didn't think that she would cut me first
Damn... cut me worse and now I'm bleeding, all that damage now your leaving
Fuck, I beg somebody call a nurse
A boy best friend is suin she had... to me I didn't care I know it's crazy
Thinking nothing of it
She asked, can I see him course I said... go ahead
Never thought a thing and now it's suin deep and I regret
I was thinking, planning out our next date
While she was doing things, nasty things with her best mate
It's mad I only found out 7 months in
Confronted her in person but she saying it was a mistake
I just need some time, I'm tryna think straight
I just need a moment in my own space
Ask me how I'm doin', I say "okay," yeah
But ain't that what we all say
Sometimes I think back to the old days
In the pointless conversations with the old me
Yeah, back when my momma used to hold me
I wish somebody woulda told me
I only found out 7 months in
It's crazy cos it happened when we was only a month in
I was never insecure that's why I found out so late
Cus' I never had her socials I just put in my faith
She wanted mine, she gave me hers and I never logged in
But when I did, I saw some things she was pulling my strings
Talking to these guys and flirting she was taking the piss
And her cousin called me ugly and she laughed at it
I kept it calm then I bucked her
Showed her everything in person, really had my head burst
She was crying, squeezing begging me to stay
Tell me why I should stay when you was happy with your best mate
Funny thing is, she saying it was mistake
Call that one a mistake why the fuck d'you still talk ay
Tryna justify her actions but she can't say
Fuck I had enough I said I'm done safe
Blocked her on my socials I just couldn't cope
What she did was dumb but the principal, that hurt me most
Cus' I trusted her with all my heart
And I let her do what ever that was from the start
Cus' I had all hope, now I'm sitting in my room thinking it's my fault
It's fucking up my head this love is so cold
I'm writing lyrics, scary sight it's like 3 am
Someone rings my bell, fucking hell she said it's me again
She snuck out of her yard at these early hours
Climbing over fences doing parkour to get to me
She gave me 13 pages, handwritten notes
Explaining everything and why and then we dropped her home
I read it in my own time and it was making sense
Telling me about her past and why she did what she did
She didn't know we'd get this far, she had a broken heart
I asked my bros, I asked my mum and they said give her chance
I just need some time, I'm tryna think straight
I just need a moment in my own space
Ask me how I'm doin', I say "okay," yeah
But ain't that what we all say
Sometimes I think back to the old days
In the pointless conversations with the old me
Yeah, back when my momma used to hold me
I wish somebody woulda told me
Growing up I been a smart kid
It's fucked don't get it twisted cos... love it had me blinded
I decided to give her a chance I had a heart
Cus' ppl make mistakes and all she needed was a restart
But... she hit me right where I couldn't see it
Now I'm cautious of this pain and thinking damn... did she mean it
I gave her everything I could, anything she needed
This song is raw but I was pure, I was fucking scenic
They called me strong but now I'm toxic
I'm a prick now I can't help it, overthinking got me stressing out
I'm asking questions, where you at? I can't stop thinking
Is she cheating? If I'm honest I don't know cos I can't trust this girl
I gave her a chance but that don't change the past
And if I'm honest I don't think it's right so really it's a funny world
She killed me, now I'm treating her bad
I'm being peaker with my texting, showing lack of effort
Damn you got me feeling cold
Used to give her everything I could, but now I can't
I don't know how to, see my heart is like a broken glass
She put the pieces back, things were getting better
But it weren't the same, I'm still insane... here we go I'm thinking bad
I wrote her a song, "Bonnie and Clyde"
And she broke down and cried on her birthday
Yeah, you know the vibes
I tried to look past the past man you know I tried
And she was going through the most her life was worse than mine
Things were getting worse she had to live at mine
Money getting tight, sometimes I couldn't eat at night
It's been a couple months... times 2, she's my ride or die
My bother overheard a convo with her friend, she fed us lies
Planning a breakup, told me it's only a break. tryna break my heart again
All these boys back on her snap again, tried to turn my mum against me
Say I'm crazy and again, I gave her everything
FUCK! she really broke my heart again
I just need some time, I'm tryna think straight
I just need a moment in my own space
Ask me how I'm doin', I say "okay," yeah
But ain't that what we all say
Sometimes I think back to the old days
In the pointless conversations with the old me
Yeah, back when my momma used to hold me
I wish somebody woulda told me