Am I losing control again? I think I suffer 'cause I think too much Too scared to face my final failure, Debate if I'm to blame Sometimes I let this heavy heart drag me down (Arrogant temperament, you're so jaded) The will to live, the strength I can't find, Wouldn't it be lovely just to die? (Self destruct and bury love with hesitation) The way I feel, the words escape me, My psyche takes the beating There's a silence becoming me as I'm spiraling down Father, I've come to know your pain I am a surrogate for your anguish And time passed, you laid yourself to waste I can't pardon your language Hate my love for you Adjusted to the casual abuse, we're lost without it Your hands around my throat, Grasping, painful cry for help Dreaming of cutting my veins out, Wrap my corpse in the sheets I hate my love for you, Hurts more than you'd imagine (I don't deserve this) I hate my love for you, And we were only starting to atone Damaged, but I love you still