Julian You're forcing dreams into my reality I gotta figure out what's wrong with me But I can't trust myself at all Julian My heart is pounding and my body's weak You're like a nightmare waking me from sleep I guess it's time to take the fall Julian You took a dive into the deepest end Keep a tally 'cause you're losing friends And you're only losing more Julian Maybe you're perfect on the inside That would explain all of the years you cried But maybe you should first be sure Julian All the stupid stubble on my face Two hundred thirty pounds of fucking waste Worst palette I could work with-what a start Julian You gotta treat your body with some care You gotta stop sad-cutting off your hair You've made this so damn hard Julian Break me down, rebuild me as you please I wanna change, I'm begging for release And I don't think I can do it all alone Julian What's the worst thing I could do? Waste a year or waste a whole life through? How many memories must I disown?