Walking this path, with nowhere to go
Don't have a place that I can call home
I keep walking, cause one day I hope
I find a spot I could possibly grow
But till then well I just don't know
I got the plans and I got the goals
But I keep failing don't want it no more
Sound like a hypocrite cause I'm unsure
I'm full of rage expressing with anger
I fill a page now I am in danger
Living the trauma, it's all on the table
Calling my name I'm calling the savior
People I know I feel like they're strangers
Not at all the time but cannot explain it
You wouldn't get it unless it's the same with
You, now all of my feelings are changing
What am I supposed to do
Cause when I come close to you
I lose myself over you
I try to take over you
But somehow I always lose
Bottled up pain
The cap is sorta loose
So what am I supposed to do
I do not get it
A lot I regretted
Yes there I said it
I mean I meant it
Yes I'm excessive
Expressing a message
Long as they get it
I am not stressing
I'm trynna find a purpose
Somehow nothing is working
With nothing I put all the work in
I thought I would be at the surface
I'm not and it's making me nervous
But I thought I really deserved it
So now I feel like a servant
Slave to this trade and it's hurting
Didn't go college like everyone wanted
Paying the price and shit is exhausting
Dealing with consequence leaving me tarnished
I knew this day would come back and haunt me
Demons all on me get the fuck off me
You want me gone, you gon need a army
Taking me hostage the moment they saw me
Then I escaped they're planning my coffin
Trynna figure out what, I decide
Trynna find an outcome, oh my
Don't think I'll outrun, but I'll try
Not gonna have fun, don't cry
Trynna be tough enough, taking on all of them
I got the power, my demons I'm calling them
I'm in the battlefield, I'm trynna slaughter them
I feel the peace by just with the thought of it
Gotta make sure that it's dark
Make sure that it came from the heart
Or they just might tear me apart
Cause that's what it was from the start
And no I'm not pushing a cart
I don't wanna hear your remarks
I lived with what I lived it was hard
But doesn't mean I'm not a shark
I'm making the music the way that I picture it
Fuck how it sounds as long as they feeling it
Sound like NF, because I'm too real with it
What I had chose, and no one is stealing it
Tried to make songs to turn up too
It's kinda hard when no one has heard of you
All of the trends I pay no concern to
Finding myself I'm trynna be purposeful
Full of the rage unleashing the pain
I'm tired of thinking I'm somewhat insane
Because what I think, they ain't thinking the same
But I'm having a tantrum, I always complain
Talk about things, that don't go my way
It's what I am feeling, so all of you deal with
I maybe the weirdest, still one of the realest
It's who that I am, and I will not contain
I'm unsure on what path to take
Even the music I sorta make
I'm loving myself but I kinda hate
Everything that is destroying me
Gotta keep going they count on me
All of my options surrounding me
One of the greatest I'm bound to be
Or the most hated so we will see