Y'all know at the beginnin' I was sayin', like
How music help me through shit and like
You know what I'm sayin'?
I feel like it's my therapy and shit
You know what I'm sayin'?
But like, lately and shit, ain't gon' lie, like
I been, just been real to myself, you feel what I'm sayin'?
It just be like, I just be goin' through a lot of shit, you know?
What if I told you that I'm exhausted (but what if I told you)
What if I told you that I'm beyond tired (beyond tired)
What if I told you that I'm so done tryin'
Wishin' my life had a button so I could rewind (so I could rewind)
What if I told you I'm not as strong as you think I am (but what if I told you)
I just wanna go far away, somewhere that I don't know where I am (somewhere that I don't know where I am)
But I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
Gotta be carеful for what I'm askin' for (gotta be careful)
This life that I prayеd for, this life that I begged
Every step that I took led me closer to the edge
I am not mentally stable (I am not mentally stable)
I am not physically able (I am not physically able)
I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
Everyday back-to-back, my momma back drinkin'
Everyday just get worse, I'm thinkin' about checkin' her into rehab
Momma, I need help too, I need to see a specialist
I done tried everythin', nothin' seems to be helpin' me
I'm so sick of people judgin' me off what I ain't got
Fallin' out with all my home boys 'cah they ain't got what I got
All this weird real fake vibin', I ain't really got nobody
Holdin' my problems, my pain silent
Should I walk away from mistakes? (Should I?)
Never been scared but right now I feel afraid (why?)
Everybody say they love me, got me feelin' like afraid
Everybody want to be famous
Been thinkin' about retirin' from music
But I don't want this life anymore
I gotta be careful for what I'm askin' for (what I'm asking for)
This life that I prayed for, this life that I begged
Every step that I took led me closer to the edge
I am not mentally stable (I am not mentally stable)
I am not physically able (I am not physically able)
I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore
And fuck the industry, all these rap niggas fake
I don't want relation, don't need nobody in my space
All this shit would bring me way more problems
Me being broke, money the only thing that solves it
Only thing that keep me goin' is that I won't let down my fans
I been way closer to y'all than my family and friends
Antisocial, bein' hurt, it kept me distant
I was tryin' to find my soul, I don't know but it's been missin'
With this life, this shit just came with more hatred
They say I'm a star, so tell me, why I feel basic?
Don't know where you are, I just need someone to save me
They blame me for tragedy, me and my niggas fightin' cases
But I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
Gotta be careful for what I'm askin' for (what I'm asking for)
This life that I prayed for, this life that I begged
Every step that I took led me closer to the edge
I am not mentally stable (I am not mentally stable)
I am not physically able (I am not physically able)
I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
I don't want this life anymore (I don't want this life anymore)
Shit, I ain't gon' lie, like
I don't wanna just give up on my fans and shit though
You feel me?
But I got like, one more album, you feel me?