It's like every day I wake up in the same rut all I can think of is ways not to commit
To pursuing my dream full steam honestly I ain't bankrupt but I'm not in 100%
So I'm off to the factory to break my damn back for these rats with cheese just to pay rent
Then it back to the shack to drink and laugh at the fact I seem distracted and have to stay bent
I'm rebel with a cause but this force is unbearable
Tearing through the terror in the mirror and it's terrible
The cold dead stare at you knowing that it's you inside
Foolish pride longing suicide wishing you had died
Who am I? Scrutinize every last cubic inch
Stupid bitch music biz consumed, you ain't been human since
Rather drive an Uber taking you and friends to events
Soon as we arrive I nose dive and resume again
This cycle is psycho, my mind goes loco
My mic or my knife got my life in chokehold
Every time my eyes close at night I'm hopeful
Soon as I arise I'm right in the old hole
Don't wanna feel this pain so I drink and I medicate
No one knows the strain or the way that we dedicate
Every word we say every secret and memory
In bed by myself but I'm sleeping with the enemy