You never wanted to see me leave this. I never wanted to stick around And there's a rainstorm in my head that I just can't outrun right now I'm faking smiles and stomach aches so I can get away Sometimes I think that I'm the only one who feels this way The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get passed them It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it? But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way I thought that with a change of pace That I could get the hang of this You're just another something That I can't seem to erase I thought that with a change of pace That things would start to feel okay again I guess I'm never gonna learn I guess I'm never gonna learn I tried to make it to the ending of a book I never read I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps I'm faking smiles and stomach aches when I Start to feel trapped (It's hard to breathe) I never thought that I would lie to the ones who stay close to me I thought that with a change of pace That I could get the hang of this You're just another something That I can't seem to erase I thought that with a change of pace That things would start to feel okay again I guess I'm never gonna learn I guess I'm never gonna learn Could you tell I wasn't honest? I could've been, I could've been I couldn't be all that you wanted Could you tell I wasn't honest? I could've been, I could've been I couldn't be all that you wanted