Woke up and it's like this
I hate that it's like this
I remember in the third grade
I didn't feel like this
I was fine then
I'm high now
Everything changed
I hate that I'm this way
Standing right here
At the edge of this cliff
Debating, should I jump or live?
That's a metaphor for this life that I'm in
I'm dying for the wrong things
I'm lying to your face right now
I hate that I feel like this
I hope that one day I can change
Now we're all dead
We can't all live
I hate this
I'm stuck here
I feel like I'm insane
Wanna change but I'm stuck this way
I can't just sell my brain
I would but I wouldn't make enough
I'm taking drugs
I'm on this earth spinning round an round every goddamn day 24hrs
I'm up now
I hate that I'm this way
I hate that I'm this way
I hate that I'm this way
Wanna drop dead will you take my problems
It's 7am and I'm up here Freestyling out my head but
This is all I can think about
All I can think about
Is I feel
So much pain inside my head
I don't where it came from
Childhood stimulation
Stuck in the matrix
I'm gonna daydream
My way out of this though
Lately
I've been
In my head for long days
3 am, 18 hours
I've been trying to get rich
Dying to live
Taking a toll on me
Taking my soul from me
Draining my life
I feel like I'm insane
Wanna change but I'm stuck this way
No way out
Let my brain just play out
Wanna numb the pain
So I hotbox in my house at 4 am
With the lights out
Let bygones be bygones
Wouldn't give this up
Now I'm high as fuck
And I hate this part