I fell inside of you And I ain't even try to When I started to hdie in you I can get so frightful When I hide in plain sight A monster under covers Not the me in real life But you could never tell 'Cause I made you feel special, yeah Made you feel great Made you feel love for the first time Like it's contagious I was only a virus Never the cure Fighting demons in my head I dump 'em on you to store When you say you love me, how you so sure? When you say you love me, how you so sure? I've been through hell and it's a struggle just to love myself My mama try to teach me, but she deals with pain in herself 'Cause I hate myself sometimes Yeah I hate myself sometimes Being honest I acknowledge I ain't I'm the worst, deserve to die for all of this, no no Yeah I hate myself sometimes Yeah I hate myself sometimes Being honest I acknowledge I ain't I'm the worst deserve to die for all of this, no no Never asked to return Never asked for this life Never asked you to burn me Like you did once or twice Never quit out of rage Hurt each other, in pain And watched reciprocal motion As it comes back again When you say you love me, how you so sure When you say you love me, how you so sure I've been through hell and it's a struggle just to love myself My mama tried to teach me, but she deal with pain in herself 'Cause I hate myself sometimes Yeah I hate myself sometimes Being honest, I acknowledge I ain't I'm the worst, deserve to die for all of this, no no 'Cause I hate myself sometimes Yeah I hate myself sometimes Being honest, I acknowledge I ain't I'm the worst deserve to die for all of this, no no They say they are waiting on a celebration I could dodge time, end up in the spaces Blowing my high, on a daily basis With this one life kept me in the trenches Screaming why God, all this temptation You could leave me dirty and alone, naked With the same thing that I once had I'd be lying if they said it's all bad Screaming why me just ain't effective Only one life and I could end it But then where in the hell would I be If I'm a monster then just leave me be Show me the way to enlightenment All of this torture on myself is higher order For the pain I'm enduring could use some water All the suffering I see has got me nauseous like You believed me And you know it's true You try to leave me And I might end it for you