Breathe in Breathe out Trying not to scream aloud I can't take this feeling This numbness deep within I ate too much, but I can't explain Swear to myself it won't happen again Lost control I can regain Undo the memory Remove the blame Remove the blame Undo the shame Remove the blame Undo the shame No matter how much I beg and plead Temptation's too much I'm just too weak Start a frenzy My eyes go blind Can't stop myself even if I try Stare at my plate, push my food around I'll eat a bit, then I'll wash it down Smiling faces, part of my game Excuse myself to unleash the pain (Hollow...) Worthless Empty Run the blade all over me Metallic taste Acidic coat Fingertips shoved right down my throat My knuckles bleed as they try to resist Find a reason to stop A reason to persist Enduring life Pursuing pain Make me feel raw Make me feel again No matter how much I beg and plead Temptation's too much I'm just too weak Start a frenzy My eyes go blind Can't stop myself even if I try Don't need no diet, no iron will Don't need to starve, or no magic pill 'Cause when I'm bad, got another way To stay on track To stay in the game Pull me under Just pull me under (Hollow...) Cleanse the darkness inside my soul (Inside my soul...) All the guilt that I swallowed whole (Whole...) Force my knees down against the ground Purge my mistakes until they erase Cleanse the darkness inside my soul (Inside my soul...) All the guilt that I swallowed whole (Whole...) Force my knees down against the ground Purge my mistakes until they erase Feed the yearning Embrace the burning And whispering from the voice within Shake and shudder Just pull me under Submerge me in this erasure But sometimes, I am unhappy This is the stuff that goes unrecorded Because I'm just... So focused... On losing weight I get like that Because I just want to drown the rest of the world out And I don't look anyone in the eye, because I'm scared that if I do They'll be able to see me for who I am And I can't have that Sometimes I just... I wanna be free I have to lose weight And I don't know why, because I don't need to I just have to because it makes me feel... alive It makes me feel like I'm achieving something But I know that no weight I reach will ever be enough Breathe in Breathe out Trying not to scream aloud I can't take this feeling This failure within my skin I'm hollow So hollow within I'm hollow This emptiness within