Do you feel like you loathe your existence The hate for yourself the only thing that's consistent Do you feel like you loathe your existence The hate for yourself the only thing that's consistent I can recall a time that I gave a fuck But now, But now, I feel like I'm only going down They say that when you're at the bottom you can only go up But I'm feeling like the floor, is starting to crumble beneath my feet No matter how hard I try to climb it's like I'm meant to fucking fail It feels like my life is still unfinished My will to move on has only deminished If you're searching for answers, I know not what it means to be Stable at the core of my soul You'll feel it coming, you'll feel it every day The thirst for purpose that makes you want to stay You"ll feel it coming, you'll feel it every day The thirst for purpose, but soon you'll Realize you play suffering as a contest I feel like it doesn't matter Life is a journey all about the conquest Inner struggles, never was a contest Try to see the light ahead of me, to move forward feels just like pain Never know the path in life you thought you'd live I know sometimes that the weight will make us snap I've been to the bottom, I fed on all the shit, that was given to me Every single day I can't feel anything, I can't deal with it I can't feel anything, I can't deal with it Life is a journey all about the conquest Inner struggles, never was a contest Try to see the light ahead of me, to move forward, feels just like pain I never thought death was the answer But maybe I am death itself I never thought I'd be the cancer But maybe I should be dead myself Stuck in here with my thoughts I will never be okay