Do I even wanna try this? I don't think we can revive this Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know that I'm willing to risk it Do I even wanna try this? I don't think we can revive this Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know if I'm willing to risk it Well I guess it's outta my hands Keep trying cuz we're parents And I wanna make amends Most of the time, we're not even friends Hung in for way too long Can't fix it, I'm not that strong And U know it takes two I was alone there you stood By myself and there you stood There you stood Holding my own and there u stood By myself, you just stood Thinking I could really fix it U made up your mind before I did So why am I even trying This is what you wanted! I felt guilt, I felt shame My personality was to blame And I kept toning me down I was free when you weren't around I was free I was free I was free Honestly Do I even wanna try this? - Out of my hands I don't think we can revive this - Way too long Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know that I'm willing to risk it- Not that strong Do I even wanna try this? - Out of my hands I don't think we can revive this Why am I willing to risk it? Don't even know if I'm willing to risk it This is what you wanted Told myself I should have seen it coming I was busy working on myself and keep us going Talking bout my feeling, I was always in my feelings And I'm sick and tired of you taking position of the the victim I don't wanna be the one who's always bringing up the pain I don't wanna be the only one of us who's not okay U telling me to drop that tone I'm way too harsh, Im way too intense And I yell too much and so I just Stopped Stop pleading Stop needing Stop feeling Stop fixing Stop longing Stop wanting Gotta let you go You're no longer good for me Never thought I'd show That I was weak That I was weak That I was weak