I spend a lot of time above water In fact, I spend most of my time in my room Lately that's made me wonder, if I've given up on Trying to be someone new Because I don't like who I see Each morning when I look in the mirror In fact it's the only thing I fear That I'm empty inside these bones And I'm not scared of ghosts I embrace them all as friends Because one day I'll be dead And they will know my name So I've been counting down my life Existing in hours, to see what I have left If I see twenty-five, I'll be surprised And if I see thirty-two, I'll take every letter I wrote to you And bury them alive, and bury them alive And If I see forty-four Well I haven't thought that far