They say it's hard to fall in love Maybe they never learned how to patiently wait They say it's always dark before the dawn But you walked away before the dawn could break So who's really right in the end? When you tore down the walls but I'm the one alone in this bed? As you feel his hands around your waste, I can feel them around my neck God, this complacency has numbed me And this numbing has scared me back into the deep I'm slowly learning how to learn from something And realizing the only thing worse than feeling pain is feeling nothing There is an intoxication in her smile and it went straight to my head Without it, I can't see past these blurred lines that I've always been fed And sometimes I wonder, maybe my chest cavity is growing bigger or maybe my heart is just shrinking Either way we decorate this ship, it's still sinking And I always had love to blame, and I always had love to blame As I try to find my way, I feel this pain and I had love to blame, I had love to blame If I were to believe in love, I would have to see a flood But knowing my luck I would somehow float to shore and have to wake up I don't want to wake up, I don't want to wake up 'Cause I'm trying, just trying to find the light inside So roll this stone away, I don't want to sleep another day I just want to be in your presence, so please let me fade away