I'm older now
I feel so stupid and confused still
I guess it's something I'm used to
I'm In love but I feel like I'm used still
Happy birthday, are you happy now?
(I hate you)
Is it still happy?
(Can you love me still?)
Are you still happy today? are you happy?
(Is that still apart of the deal?)
18 feels like a prison
Why's it so hard for you to listen
I lost my way fuck today
It's not happy not even okay
I hate it all, happy birthday
Happy birthday, are you happy now?
(I hate you)
Is it still happy?
(Can you love me still?)
Are you still happy today? are you happy?
(Is that apart of the deal?)
I'm 18 by myself and I hate it, family feels so overrated
Sister left so did my brother
And I still get into fights with my mother
Cause i'm piece of shit
My friends probably hate me I wouldn't blame them
Wish we had more pictures together so I could frame them
Cause I lost all of mine when I was younger
And I wish we wouldn't have wasted every one of are summers
Don't say that you miss me cause I've had the same number
Me and Sully would talk about today all the time
I wonder if I called him if he would press decline
He was my best friend I miss and I hope that he's fine
I should be happy today but I feel like piece of shit
All I do is fuck things up I don't deserve to have my candles lit
They should've stopped at 14
When I felt like my only options was dying
All I been doing lately is crying
I hope I can give my favorite person
The miles we drove in her car back
Maybe I should've been better
I didn't write a letter but hey
Happy birthday
Can you love me still, is that apart of the deal