Predisposition addiction is still familial Embedded into my blood till the day that I die but still you'll Be running from any question regarding the incoherence I'm hardly scratching the surface you're growing up with no parents Tell me what it's like and what it's like being you Cause I'm not fond of being me and what do I even do I start my day and write a poem and record over noise I think my sadness is a gimmick an audience can enjoy I could be a showman in reciting my verses I'm not the one you've met before because there's multiple versions A combination of a psyche and things that I wouldn't say I remember laying down and hoped my lungs would inflate How did I survive almost wishing I hadn't I had a doctor working round the clock to try to combat it The only thing is when I left the world is now overrun The storm is brewing up on top a hill that we'll overcome Why are you complaining you should be more grateful Hurting this badly you find yourself unable It's going right but I'm oh so torn And this endless affliction's been there since I was born Suicidal wishing on the rise red eyes From the weed they bought and roll with a sense death pries In abundance the demand has been shrunken dried and diminished But the archivists are convinced they aren't near to being finished After deducing I turn to stone like Medusa When catching glances and staring into the basin and root of Where my abjection has settled detecting I like a challenge I've got a method to fix it but that's not part of my palate Faltering and halting aspirations we had But the world ain't owe me nothing so I guess I'll be glad In the lowest of grading accumulating like dregs It doesn't mean a thing when they don't even try and they beg Stains from the smoke adhering to the dashboard On a trip heading south and I don't need a passport Ain't a two-way stop there's no return address Boutta have a good rest in this dirt mattress Why are you complaining you should be more grateful Hurting this badly you find yourself unable It's going right but I'm oh so torn And this endless affliction's been there since I was born Where do you go When you're this low How do you hide From all these lies