Pain in my brain I just hope it ends Raining again let the snow descend I was sober once baby I'm forreal I've been home for months I got time to kill I could open up would like me still I've been known to trust now I fight to feel Think we're close enough really I can tell If I chose to love you provide for real Barrier I set up as a defense Scarier when head up in the deep end Said you never leave really thought that that was decent That's ok with me this shit changes with the seasons It was never deep really just needed a reason why A reason why Need a reason why I don't know where this could lead In the cold air empathy It goes on and on I never noticed it and when it's gone it's gone And I get no revenge And it gets hard to talk bout what I'm closin' in And it be hard to stop if we're not open and Pain in my brain I just hope it ends And it's raining again let the snow descend Cold December Been a snowy winter I sniff blow when with her Helps to hold the liquor Said you're no pretender What you showed me differs From what the old me pictured Now I know won't fix her I hope you die I hope you lose yourself somewhere along the way if you survive I hope you move through hell so we can't talk again Talk again