Oh uh,
Crying every night,
Every night
Oh uh,
The pain never going away
The gun on my shelf luring me in
I can see the devil holding the gun with a grin
He's handing it to me, telling me to kill me
I'm hesitant but Might as well, since I fucking hate me
Please listen
I'm a express these feelings within
Cause I can't keep this shit in
I need to get things off my chest
I don't care about some shorty with breasts
I'll never have that, cause I feel there's more important quests
Yeah
I never sinned
So why won't god help me with these demons
I honestly hate
Talking bout these feelings
Cause guess what?
People have their own problems to deal with
Always sad
Starting to think that happiness is a myth
Nothing has changed, I still despise myself
If things don't change, I might just off myself
Taking these drugs, hoping I can numb myself
But no matter what, I can't ever ever love myself
Crying at 3 am listening to mac
Realizing that that the music I make, is wack
Theirs so many thing's I wish I had, but lack
I couldn't tell you, what I did last last week
Probably met the men in black
Or maybe it's cause every day is the fucking same
My life is so fucking boring and lame
I'm such a loser, But I'm to be blamed
I wish I could meet the version of me, that is critically acclaimed
The devil and the angel playing tug of war
With the way I am now, I think the devil won
Every day I'm demanding more and more
From myself, but I'm so useless that I just can't
Keep on doing this shit
Everyone winning, While I'm not doing shit
Constantly day dreaming of a life I wish I had
I'm so fucking sad, waiting for the day I die
But maybe that's a lie cause honestly I'm
Waiting for the day, I turn the gun on the devil
Live happily ever after, and improve my mental
I've been cruising, but I'll put my foot to the pedal
After this fight though, I think I'll deserve a medal
I just told you everything on this instrumental
I wrote all this from my heart, so it's sentimental
Every happy day feels like it's rental, hope you can understand
Even though I'm temperamental yeah
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