Deadbeat Mocked by blurred out faces Grin the same, but always shifting places And from what I see No-one else is aware, is it only me? Please god, erase me I'm doomed and I'm slowly going fucking crazy Cursed to look just like you So my own mother is too afraid to face me Formative years soaked in grey A childhood spent running just so we could feel safe But you knew then, and you know it still The apathy in your eyes would slowly kill me I feel the sting of wind and rain Yet it won't wash away all this fucking shame Every crash leaves a deafening silence Cautioning impending violence Mocked by blurred out faces Grin the same, but always shifting places So when you look at me You can see the product that trauma breeds I lost all sense of family The day you tried to murder my mother and me No love, no reparations For a deadbeat cunt I lost all sense of family The day you tried to murder my mother and me