Black blazers in the sixth grade While everyone dressed their age I didn't want to be the same Whispers in the hallways They'd hurt but I didn't change I didn't want to be the same I've been overthinking since I was a baby Trying to prove the world that I'd be something maybe Who knew wanting to be different could be draining Lonely when I'm on the outside I tell myself I'm special Special Yeah, yeah I don't wanna be ordinary I tell myself I'm special Why do I always have to feel so special In my head at every party They're wasted while I'm thinking On the couch A stranger's house I tell myself I stand out They just can't see me right now Need to get out of this town Get away I can't stay I've been overthinking since I was a baby Trying to prove the world that I'd be something maybe Who knew wanting to be different could be draining Lonely when I'm on the outside I tell myself I'm special Special Yeah, yeah I don't wanna be ordinary I tell myself I'm special Why do I always have to feel so special Why do I always have to feel so special Why do I always have to feel so special Yeah, I am a bit protective I got that main character perspective If I reject, can't get rejected No Yeah, I am a bit protective I got that main character perspective If I reject, can't get rejected No, no, no Lonely when I'm on the outside I tell myself I'm special Special Yeah, yeah I don't wanna be ordinary I tell myself I'm special Why do I always have to feel so special Why do I always have to feel so special Why do I always have to feel so special Lonely when I'm on the outside I tell myself I'm special Why do I always have to feel so special I tell myself I'm special Why do I always have to feel so special