(Yeah)
Ape on the beat and I'm flowin'
X on the mic hold my shit bro I'm throwin'
All these other rappers know where I'm going
I bounced up and came back just lived in the moment
I deal with these thoughts they roam inside my head
Got issues but frankly I'm better off dead
They laughed in my face tell me my dreams are dead
But thanks for the thoughts now I'll pick up my pen
I remember the days when I wasn't unknown
My momma that loved me is better alone
My father doesn't even care that I bawl
Does he even know that I miss him at all?
No wonder I'm fucked up and beat in the head
People that care know I'm better off dead
What fucking brightside I'll put down my pen
My thoughts keep on growing will this ever end?
I just really wanna know what it feels like
To wake up, with no pain and know I'm alright
Feel this shit up in my veins but I feel so alive
Feelin' sick I'm fuckin' burnin' all the damn time
I just really wanna know what it feels like
To wake up, with no pain and know I'm alright
Feel this shit up in my veins but I feel so alive
Feelin' sick I'm fuckin' burnin' all the damn time (Yo yo yo)
I'm flowin' I'm goin' these thoughts that are inside my head man there growing
Got issues but frankly I'm stuck in the moment
My grandpa once told me I'm so far from knowing
These thoughts in my head that I keep in my mind keeps myself still awake in the darkest of times
But I'll try to hang on to just one spark of light but it's so hard to find when you're trapped in your mind
And I pray and I pray but these thoughts never end so I try to hang on to the hope that I can
And I feel so alive when I'm feeling your touch and my God only knows that I miss you so much
Maybe there's still some hope deep down inside
And maybe my dreams are where I find the light
But living in fear man the pain comes at night
I'm so far from home please just come take my life
I just really wanna know what it feels like
To wake up, with no pain and know I'm alright
Feel this shit up in my veins but I feel so alive
Feelin' sick I'm fuckin' burnin' all the damn time
I just really wanna know what it feels like
To wake up, with no pain and know I'm alright
Feel this shit up in my veins but I feel so alive
Feelin' sick I'm fuckin' burnin' all the damn time