I tried to fall in love, tried not to fuck it up
And shoulder the blame
I asked myself questions, and I wrote myself letters
And I broke down and prayed
'Cause if there was a time to feel something
That time would've come
Instead I just don't, and I'm scared that you're gone
I'm scared that you're gone
'Cause you've always been there
But now I know it's gotta change
And it's not fucking fair
That I can't seem to love you
The same
I swear to God, when I think about where I might be
In ten years, I still see you in all of my thoughts
And it's hard, but I have to believe
Somehow, you won't always be sad when you see me
Or angry and want me to leave
'Cause my presence is pain
I might hurt you again
By accident
Your room's always been cold, but that night
That room, it was arctic
And I cried the whole time that I walked back
To my cold apartment
'Cause I called your room my home
Let myself get comfortable
Less used to being alone
'Cause I had a friend
Who heard the way my head sounds
You let me let my guard down
I'm glad that I did
'Cause I needed a friend
But then how did it get this far?
I don't know how to fix this part
Didn't know that I could break both hearts
Just by needing a friend
I'm sorry for hurting you
I'm better off for knowing you
I wish that I could talk to you
'Cause I need a friend
If you just give it one more thought
Maybe I'm not the one you want
Or realize in the end
What you need is a friend