How many times do I gotta tell you "no"
I've been poisoning my mind walking by the wrong roads
Long nights in my thoughts
Turn them into dreams when I wake
Is it brave to come to terms with your mistakes?
All I needed was a break
So I hopped right on that train to run away
Struggling with grief and fighting demons everyday
And when I pray, I wonder if there's any truth to what I say
I'll fill a bucket full of water just to wash my sins away
But I'm a champion
Play anthems and get joy from all my pain
Penning strong for when it rains
So ain't no smudge up on my page
I celebrate on all my losses
Have a toast to better days
Let's play our music in a rage
To clear the mind trapped in a cage
Yet I
Don't think I've done enough
I'll never do enough
I'll always be the runner up
Wishing for better luck
My luck doesn't define me
Better leave those thoughts behind me till I'm good
I thought the dreams would help
Going to sleep to forget myself
I can't breathe, need to check my health
Even the best intentions send me straight to hell
I thought the dreams would help
Going to sleep to forget myself (To forget myself)
I can't breathe, need to check my health
Even the best intentions send me straight to hell
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Colour me blind
I feel like all I see is red when I look for a sign
Mamma said say your prayers at night
So I spit them at nine
Anything to bring me out of this pit of demise
I'm stuck in my mind
Stuck in my ways of feeling just like I know that I'm not good enough
Like theres something inside myself I guess I couldn't love
Life can be so cold
That's why I keep my hoodie up
I'm right next to pain in the dictionary
You can look me up
But I'm looking on to better days
I'm looking on to better days
I'm looking on to better days
Better days
Yeah
I thought the dreams would help
Going to sleep to forget myself
I can't breathe, need to check my health
Even the best intentions send me straight to hell
I thought the dreams would help
Going to sleep to forget myself
I can't breathe, need to check my health
Even the best intentions send me straight to hell