I had a vision of snow Fall into footprints I watched the winter whip And bury everything Off in the distance Your figure drifting in mist On pilgrimage and all alone You were like a stone Thrown in a river Or in your pocket I was the water And I watched you tremble Down into nothing Sink like an anchor You're failing A phantom A break in the bone I will be the one who chases you out in the snow Go where you tunnel down and the trouble starts I will follow you out and carry all the pain away I will be the one who follows you out in the flow Go if the water swells drags you under. Know I will swallow it whole and carry all the pain away Nights I wandered out Head buried in my coat Snow blowing in everything Thick like smoke I could feel the cold growing How weather makes you hold things tight On the way to buy us wine Nights afraid to die There is that phantom path Carved in ghost steps sloped down To a pond somehow still half-frozen The evidence of struggle again so many years ago Our first turn out to Lowell from home The image returns to me Again and again When will it leave? I was waiting for the anger to change I was waiting for the anger to change I was waiting for the anger to change And the roof beams to bend and give way under weight I was waiting for the anger to change I was waiting for the anger to change I was waiting for the anger to change And the roof beams to bend and the whole thing to break Chasing your pain, You were like a chain swung in anger You're anxious, you're shaking, I know The shape of your pain Painted with the name on your shoulder blade Never gets older or wakes And I know the way Down highways through Ada To places you waited for friends who can't show And I know your dreams Of opening caskets You shake in the mattress, you shake in the