I could have died for you, once maybe that was true But now I've fallen to the depths of despair I don't know why you couldn't see what you wanted me to be But now it seems that you were being that unfair You tied this rope around my neck Then hung me out for all to see I didn't know anything You took advantage of me I'm not expecting you to apologize In fact, I'd give anything to hear more lies You're not my god - but I will follow you You're not my god - but I'll do anything for you You're not my god - but I'll find out what I do believe You're not my god, you're not my god I feel so ashamed that I let you have your way And didn't fight for what was mine all along You always told me that nothing was guaranteed That doesn't make it any easier to be strong You taught me everything I know Then left me out in the rain I've hurt for so long There's nothing left of my pain I hate myself to sleep at night I just don't care anymore what's wrong or right Body grinder, soul finder Sometimes I need a little reminder Put me on the straight and narrow Now that I'm more like an arrow Shoot your heart out, steal your mind I don't care about what I'll find Time to figure out what I need So when you cut me I don't bleed Smash a window, cut my fist Poke my eyes out, slit my wrist Listen when I scream for you Then you tell me what to do Walk all over me, I don't care Burn my body,? I come up, but I won't see Why the fuck you're killing me