I lied to my mother cause I'm way too down to tell her the truth All I say is "no the struggles I am facing they are not about you" The pills from the drug store lost their effect All I wanna do is sleep, never waking up again I push myself through every day alone You ask if I need help I say I don't I can't put weight on you trying to fix me I push myself through every day alone When you ask I say that I'm okay, I know I learned it this way, I am trying to fix it I lied to my mother I was way too down to tell her the truth When OCD was hitting hard again, I locked myself in my room No pills in the world will help me escape From the years I spent thinking I was a freak I push myself through every day alone You ask if I need help I say I don't (I can't put) I push myself through every day alone When you ask I say that I'm okay, I know I learned it this way, I am trying to fix it