I can't remember when I last felt this way Nineteen years of fighting and it's the first time that I can stand up straight And I don't know why you're acting kinda fucked up But I don't mind 'cause I think it brings me satisfaction It's been a long time since I've asked where I'm at But I don't wanna stick my nose in the types of things that might concern me I think it's clear why I left But it's kinda fucked up, yeah, it's kinda fucked up That it went like this I liked when you said that I'm going to hell I'm friends with the Devil, yeah he'll treat me well Heaven's for people who took your advice Nothing is learned when you're wasting your life Watch the smile return to my face Swimming insecurities have always been a part of me I thought it was some kind of game But it's kinda fucked up I'll admit it, I fucked up And I laughed when you said that I'm going to hell I'm friends with the Devil, yeah he'll treat me well I think that you ought to take this advice Nothing is learned when you're doing it right I am gonna make it, gonna make it I am gonna fake it until I make it