I try to focus on my drink but I can see my fate in it I took a deep breath and drunk and never questioned where I got it Is this purgatory now? I swear I'm dead! I really mean it I've hit rock bottom I wake in bed And fuck myself over again I'll give myself up to the wind if I please 'Cause it's so fucking pointless making plans with my dreams Well you've just woken up and I'm barely asleep When I'm home from this journey I'm giving myself to the sea I try to focus on my feet but it's a blur just past my nose Wearing the same jeans and same hat I wore a year ago When you explained to me there was beauty missing someone far away Did you really mean it? Or have you forgotten? I wake in bed And fuck myself over again I'll give myself up to the wind if I please 'Cause it's so fucking pointless making plans with my dreams Well you've just woken up and I'm barely asleep When I'm home from this journey I'm giving myself to the sea The things you need You push away