Heavy heart and everything turns grey I wrote a note I'm not so proud of My bottle's half gone that's the pessimist in me A lot of hopes that I just ran out of Clear view of the dirty rain water Dripping off of the shutters on the fifteenth floor Lex is a pro got me in a daze I can see the sounds of the city I don't sleep no more I kinda think of death way to often Too many doubts til my mouth's like cotton I thought I hit rock bottom Built a glass house then I hit rock bottom Where was I When I lost my sense of self I'm paralyzed There's so much I can't help I fantasize I could walk with you again I'll cut ties with the devil 'cause I don't wanna fuck around And bury all my friends Where was I A lot of loss and I wonder where time goes There's still a lot of shit I'm so damn proud of A year moves slow how much time I spent alone In a funk that I can't get out of I kinda think of death way to often Too many doubts til my mouth's like cotton I thought I hit rock bottom Built a glass house then I hit rock bottom Where was I When I lost my sense of self I'm paralyzed There's so much I can't help I fantasize I could walk with you again I'll cut ties with the devil 'cause I don't wanna fuck around And bury all my friends Where was I Oh shit here we fucking go again Pussy money drugs been the only thing filling me Drinking every night trying to fill the void of feeling it You got me feeling nice I just might hand you my letterman I smile even through the hurt I smile It's so hard to look up when you're down This over my head I might drown Where was I When I lost my sense of self I'm paralyzed There's so much I can't help I fantasize I could walk with you again I'll cut ties with the devil 'cause I don't wanna fuck around And bury all my friends Where was I