Who or what is any of this for? An empty theatre Staring at myself Maybe I've had too much time to think Desperate to move on Before I count to one I draw a line here and now From my sternum to my gut Nothing to numb, nothing to take for the pain Draining the puss Breaking the surface again I push myself under Clean my wounds With both eyes on the horizon I've got one foot in the grave Before I know it I'll be dead Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead, Dead I can't be scared of living anymore I don't know what I'm searching for Foreign bodies Scared of what I'll find Things better left unsaid Imprisoned in skin In the safety of familiar cells Acclimatised to life on the inside Psychosomatic, self inflicted Why bother? Let myself slip away It got the best of me Well what did that leave? Morbid curiosity compelling me to breathe To breathe To breathe A whole year cooking in my own juices Self awareness becomes self obsession Self surgery, where will it leave me? Are we healing or just rotting from the inside? My brain's in a blender Flesh barely holding on I'm bursting at the seams I can't hold it in anymore With both eyes on the horizon I've got one foot in the grave Before I know it I'll be dead I can't be scared of living anymore Things are always clearer when you take another look Life has left a back door open Giving you a second glance