Stuck in reverse
I don't want the hatred
Trying to escape
There's a barb in my chest
I'll never get back
These years that I wasted
I don't know you
At least the way I used to
Hope is tearing me apart
There's a vacant space in my head
Where all these memories used to be
I'm hoping
I'll never be like you
So broken
I'll never fall into your scheme
I won't repeat
So many years that you have stolen
Stolen from me
You taught us fear
The way you treated us
I saw her crying in the cabin tryna to keep you away
But your only child became one of your victims
In retrospect all you wanted for me is bliss
But in the end
All you did is take the best from me
Take the best from me
I know you wanted us
So tell me, did you give this up
Did you try to redeem yourself
Or did it knock you out as much as us
I'm hoping
I'll never be like you
So broken
I'll never fall into your scheme
I won't repeat
So many years that you have stolen
Stolen from me
(Dear father, this is not a letter to rescue you)
(This is a silent scream to save me)
I'm trying to rebuild the best of me
It's time to fix these cracks
I don't need the person you ought to be
I'm not a prisoner of my past
I tear myself away from hope and disappointment
Dear father
This is not a letter to rescue you
This is a silent scream to save me
Dear father
This is not a letter to rescue you
This is a silent scream to save, to save me
I'm trying to rebuild the best of me
It's time to fix these cracks
I don't need the person you ought to be
I'm not a prisoner of my past
I tear myself away from hope and disappointment