I never thought about the future Never even crossed my mind Went to work every day to earn my dollar Always had my nose to the grind So I missed all the signals I should have spent more time at home Now every other week my boy comes to visit When he leaves I feel so all alone It's a short drop to the bottom And a long climb to the top Some nights I feel the silence Of my whole world coming to a stop How did this ever happen It doesn't make any sense at all I spend my time anticipating Waiting for the other shoe to fall Went to see my boy play soccer Then I saw her across the field I felt my heart beat right through my chest Is this a dream or is it real I didn't want to believe it When I saw her in the stands It's been a long time since I've seen that smile She had her arms around another man It's a short drop to the bottom And a long climb to the top Some nights I feel the silence Of my whole world coming to a stop How did this ever happen It doesn't make any sense at all I spend my time anticipating Waiting for the other shoe to fall Sometimes I pick up the phone to call her When she answers I don't say a thing Sometimes it seems all we do is argue Sometimes I know she just lets it ring