I'm on a wave soul surfing soul search for myself I'm on an island down near Thailand, replaying clips and counting shells Yea, I'm just I'm just I'm tryna count sheep, cuz sleep something lately that I really need I'm going crazy baby, maybe I'm just seeing you in my dreams I hope for peace Telling myself that maybe one we will be Grand soliloquy, this soldiers going down honorably Yea I tried to work it all out, fucked it up more Fucking perfect It's no secret, yea I'm feeling weird and worthless Ima loner and freak, you laugh me, and clown my circus But underneath the surface, I know, that you still think about the good me, cuz we were Worth it You brush your heart away like I hurt it Somehow I always find out Ugly truths about my pain Yea