I'm in my head Not in my heart That's why we feel so far apart I'm just so lost Stuck in these thoughts And I hate to see you walking away Another tragicomedy is playing out Must be why there's RnB in speakers and it's playing loud My heart is speeding so it's weird that I'm feeling down Went from body work and sex appeal to peeling out Hearing the pattern of heels and it's screaming at me Fearing the shatter of feels while I'm screaming madly Concealing the laugher I steal while I'm feeling badly It's all I got I miss you, sadly Used to think that we could weather any kinda storm My sheets are cold and now my God Damn phone is warm I kinda wish you got mad so I could feel the scorn Cuz hell's got nothing on a broken heart with time to mourn Used to be us Now it's just me All on my own for you to see I'm just so sick What I might miss And my heart just sits here bleeding I'm in my head Not in my heart That's why we feel so far apart And I'm just so lost Stuck in these thoughts And I hate to see you walking away Walking away Hate to see you walking away I don't intend to play the victim I'm sick of never fitting in the system Heart grows fonder when there's distance Maybe I'll call it up, shut my mouth and listen This shit is so taxing I tell myself to use this time for hanging and relaxing But instead it's just my memories I'm grasping Knowing I was terrified of this exact thing I've been a groom more times than a groomsman I know I'm different I'm just trying to be a human My taste is long acquired like ajwain or cumin Tried to find a groove but I slipped and it turned gruesome Used to be us Now it's just me All on my own for you to see I'm just so sick What I might miss And my heart just sits here bleeding I'm in my head Not in my heart That's why we feel so far apart And I'm just so lost Stuck in these thoughts And I hate to see you walking away Walking away Hate to see you walking away We're just so lost Stuck in these thoughts Sick of never fitting in the system Heart grows fonder when there's distance Heart just sits here bleeding Walking away