Everything but what I need to breathe Always a fathom away I see a mirage of sanity constantly escaping reach I'm high off the thought of normalcy Is someone coming for me Nobody's coming for me I lost the choice to inhale Descend the ladder to hell I've been trying to define To no avail this ever present wave of defeat It pulls me under And fills my lungs with smoke and water Bloated body melted eyes Nobody was surprised collectively they sighed At least he died as he lived, surrounded by all his shit At least he died as he lived I've been trying to define To no avail this ever present wave of defeat It pulls me under And fills my lungs with smoke and water Bloated body melted eyes Scorching skin nerves cauterized Somehow the story continues after the author dies Bloated body melted eyes scorched skin nerves cauterized