Walking near the water I can see the very spot you said you would Then you got drunk and all our friends Said "don't you dare fuck this up" So this is how it goes And this is how I walk now This is how the weight feels Will I ever sleep well? In a perfect world we'd be in jeans We'd be in T-shirts, be in love If I cared enough, I'd be distraught Like I used to be, like I always was So this is how it goes So this is how I walk now So this is how you fade out And this is how you sleep well So this is how it goes And this is how I walk out Some things will never heal well Some things I can't remember So this is how it feels And this is how you fade out So happy fuckin' new year We're alive but I want back my life, the years, the hope