I just wanna kill this shit
I don't see another way out
I've been crawling on my knees for this
Been afraid of my own damn self
I'll see you on the other side
One night
With an empty life, in the daylight
Seeing 28 where the stage is bright
Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right
This is torture for a soul who hangs on to a wish
I grab my stress and pity texts I add it to the list
You took control of who I am when I was just a kid
And now I'm 21 I lie about my tears again
Got me for everything
You never fail to show up
Stole opportunities from me and labeled it just like love
I spend a week inside my issues and I feature the front
I leave my room in early morning sober smile like a
Angel
A fearless bitch
You will never let me be those things until the pain lifts
I got no more energy for you who thought that I'd win
Needing help you kick me
While I'm drowning in the deep end
Little by little by little
I figure you out
Nobody'd ever believe it
I let my guard down
I just wanna kill this shit
I don't see another way out
I've been crawling on my knees for this
Been afraid of my own damn self
I'll see you on the other side
One night
With an empty life, in the daylight
Seeing 28 where the stage is bright
Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right
You don't even know what kind of pressures on my shoulders
I've been having all the weight on me since I was 10 years old
And now the more that I am growing is the more I'm looking backward
Trying to see what I did wrong and is this what I'm truly after
Factoring in the people that I'm letting go of
The necessary steps to this I'll never take control of
And I can see the way they judge me I can see the way they smile
I can tell if they support us or just looking for a ride
Writing down the words and my heart beats a little faster
I don't want you to be worried but you know what happens after
If I only took a minute just to breathe and feel the laughter
I'd be closer to my friends and family far from this disaster
Man it got really hard
I just wanna kill this shit
I don't see another way out
I've been crawling on my knees for this
Been afraid of my own damn self
I'll see you on the other side
One night
With an empty life, in the daylight
Seeing 28 where the stage is bright
Pray the view is great and I'm sleeping right