(Am I good? It's going? Okay) I've been working so much I ain't got time for sleep And I've been sleeping so much I ain't got time for dreams And after all this time It's too dark to see But I'll keep pushing ahead even if it kills me And I'll still wish you the best even though you hate me Don't tell me it's okay Been suicidal ever since I lost all sense of what it meant To feel alive Or feel okay Or feel awake Or feel a thing So hold me close Let me tell you All the shit I had to go through Just to be A second thought A memory Best you forgot It's hard enough To stay alive When it's too much To say goodbye I'll stay like this I'll stay alive And hope it's better Down the line But if it's not I guess that I'm A total loss Until I die Total loss Until I die