I'm stressin', they still don't see my grind
They ain't thinkin' the demons I had to go and fight
Is this the old me? Maybe it's just the only life I'll ever know
This sad boy shit slowly took over mine
Maybe it's me
Blood brothers have slowly died
Four days got me actin' like my blower died
I'm over life
Disappear and then go and hide
Then sit alone and replay on our older life
I'll go fuck up my life, lay with this ho' tonight
I feel alone since my bro left and my homie died
If only I tried harder, I'd have my ride or die
No waiting, I try to shift gear like a motorbike
I swear I grew up as that chatty kid that no one liked
Now these bitches wanna fuck me and it blows my mind
If I dig up this Beretta, as I blow my mind
I'm only seeing pictures of you and Violet
Just know I tried
We came up off nothing and she won't know this life
No trophy wife ever gets what you know me like
Who was there while I sat in cells on them lonely nights?
I cut myself, say I'm fine but she just knows it's lies
Money, drugs and pussy ain't my only vice
I can preach on a beat but can't take my own advice
Mind racin'
Want to get on the slow tonight
Overdose, tuck my daughter in and then close my eyes
Chrorus
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Sleepin' on the floor together
All them times in court together
Caught together, never talked and walked together
All them times we had to starve and now we ball together
After all this weather, how the fuck are we at war together?
She's the only one I'll ever love, I always tell her
But lately it's like love ain't enough
You get high for a little bit and then love is a drug
You come back down to Earth, it seems like nothing is up
It's probably me, I'm numb from the mud in my cup
Every time she saved my life, it's been fucking me up
Have I gone crazy? Maybe I'm just stuck in a rut
I know I'm crazy, I'm stuck in a rut
But how's she supposed to love a cheater? I ain't Steve Smith
This ain't a game when you leave me, swear I ain't breathing, bitch
So I go missing with other chicks and a bleeding wrist
Then regret why I'm living and why'd I leave this bitch?