All a lie, all a lie It's all what I thought so I bothered why? And true we ain't far from the starting line But you hit me hard in this heart of mine She sang me a lullaby holdin' my hands to her waist So I waited, I'm tryna be patient I'm tryna be different, old habits erase 'em I really insist that it's all in the pacing Eat away at me don't stop it love Either way that you gon' chop it up Shit ain't the same, and that's what I want Shield you from pain but it's not enough Rest on my laurels repressin' my fear, yeah And stress that I feel, all in my chest And my mandible, trust that I handle my business Though pressure has built So what's the deal? Stuck in my head I ain't love it in here, live in the moment we liftin' off Something I'm sippin' on puffin' this spliff And not lovin' this shit I'm on fuck it I been alone So what's the deal? Stuck in my head I ain't love it in here, live in the moment we liftin' off Something I'm sippin' on puffin' this spliff And not lovin' this shit I'm gone Girl you scared of what you don't know And it's easy loving yourself Yeah you scared of what you don't know I can't hear you if you don't yell Girl you scared of what you don't know And it's easy loving yourself Yeah you scared of what you don't know I can't hear you if you don't yell I'm, I'm, thinkin' in circles so I drink about it I'm, sinkin' in purple till my ink is out Look at that tourmaline gleam with the green That's how you seemed but it's different now Can't relate? I can't hate that Can't keep stressin' like damn face facts Brief depression then, learn some lessons And cook some breakfast yea, pancakes fat Thinkin' in circles, sinkin' in purple Pick a damn route right now I cannot ride 'round all day Why wait while the light die down? I ain't gon' assume what you want What I gotta do just to prove what I'm 'bout? This love seemed light till I found out what it weigh That's life like, what a day Yeah, it's been a minute Wishing that we'd talk still Sittin' by the window, driftin' like it's limbo Hopin' that the pain gon' heal But I know it won't, honestly these back and forths Got me thinking I don't know what's real Empathy gets the best of me, it's so bittersweet Don't know how you feel Fuck it, I know that we messed up I know that I'm stressed out I'm just laying here picking up the pieces Just to feel so let down, just an ex now I'm a fuck up, and it's fucked up How you left with no sound And it's hard to breathe because honestly I'm too scared to speak up out loud Ay, hold up, I'm so sorry for the wait I'm so sorry for the way I treated you It's just a phase Missed connections gon' haunt me Baby put it in its grave Yeah I know we're not together But I know it's not the same Yeah I know it's not the same Girl you scared of what you don't know And it's easy loving yourself Yeah you scared of what you don't know I can't hear you if you don't yell Girl you scared of what you don't know And it's easy loving yourself Yeah you scared of what you don't know I can't hear you if you don't yell Guess I'm scared of what I don't know And it's easy loving myself Yeah I'm scared of what I don't know I need answers only time tell Guess I'm scared of what I don't know And it's easy loving myself Yeah I'm scared of what I don't know I need answers only time tell