I'm having some trouble
Beginning to wonder
If I've been becoming someone
Or the person that I want to be
(Is this it for me
Is this all I'll be
All I've been being)
It started that summer
Kept bubbling under
One way or another
I just had to learn to
Make everything freeze
(Did everything cease
Can anyone see
Or am I just seizing)
I can't duck & cover
Or leave like my brother
Don't think that my mother
Would ever recover
Should I rest in peace
(A terrible thing
To bare all the wings
Would tear her to pieces)
Cause no one's more careful
Or frozen in fear
Than the people aware of
What it takes to cancel out
Core memories
(Is anything free
Can anyone speak
Some sense or the meaning)
I guess we've had some luck
Just not nearly enough
To heal all of the cuts
Carry all of that stuff
To a place we call safe
(Can't handle the weight
Believe all the fake
That feeling is fleeting)
It's so hard to care
Then just not give a fuck
All the sudden give up
Or move forward and trust
Everything is okay
(I don't feel okay
I won't feel okay
As long as I'm breathing)
No your problems are not mine
I know that it's not fine
I try to get offline
But strangers and stop signs
Are blocking the way
(I don't want to stay
I don't want to stay
& I can't escape it)