Watch the eye in the sky open up now
The blood moon screams as he gives you yeah his crown
The hospital you called home is overcrowded now
The room you had isn't yours you tear the walls down
You find a hole in the plaster and you crawl through
Question your own sanity because no one will follow you
Realize you're unmedicated, vision starts to vibrate to
See the fingernails start to peel back as the bones show through
You gotta understand that we don't see the same perspective of reality
Just because you see something different doesn't mean that its not real to me
Somedays I wake in a bed covered in ash and I don't think I can breathe
Staring at the ceiling above as the teeth start to show you burst through the door as I Scream
You look at me like I'm just different
Your piling rocks outside my chest until it crushes all of me
I walk outside, see missing posters
My face is painted on the wall and I'm hoping that I can be free
If I could explain my mind, would you want to understand
The fire burns hot from inside, it brings to life all my fears
Maybe I'm mentally fucked, is that why you stop and stare
Medicate me to feel numb so I don't show that I'm scared
I'm scared of my brain
Sorrow and panic with no one to blame
I'm terrified babe
I look for distractions in unhealthy ways
I'm elated bitch I gotta face it
I got problems that I know I'm making
I got issues stemming stemming from the liquids
Ima miss you, leaving for a quick hit
I know I got some problems
Sorry I ruined your daughter
I told her that I'm awful
Then she just passed the bottle
Woke up manic, automatic, panic at the damage
God I've fucking had it, gotta quit it, fuck I took granted
All those sober days I never knew, man fuck I got abandoned
By my fucking logic, man I got it, I'm an alcoholic
Fuck the beta blockers they ain't doing shit I gotta fight
Lost my chance at living like a fucking human cuz my mind
Man I'm sick of all this shaking in my hands I need a light
I need a glass, I need the wine
If I could explain my mind, would you want to understand
The fire burns hot from inside, it brings to life all my fears
Maybe I'm mentally fucked, is that why you stop and stare
Medicate me to feel numb so I don't show that I'm scared