I know that I can fuck up and I've only got myself to blame
But I've got shit to do rather than sit here, put myself to shame
Reset my brain
I've been in pain, I'll have some Tylenol
The only way to stop is to try catch some Z's like Dragon Ball
Now in control and happiness and blessings are my only goals
Life is such a gamble
Best bet is to grab your dice and roll
I've done some shit now I regret it
Whilst I stand here, can't forget it
Fuck your paramedics, won't be needing any anaesthetic
Since I've learnt this language I can fill myself with pride
Not only can I speak that, I can shell that on the mic
No more negativity, I'll keep that out my life
Just as long as you're all gone
I'm glad to have you out my sight
Theres some things that you won't know
I've steady kept them on the low
Six years old my mum would work, I'd have to stay at home
My dad is out there drinking when I'll see him, I don't know
We didn't have no central heating so I'd go sleep with my coat
I'm not saying that I've never sinned
Old habits they are getting binned
Arrogant I've never been
These things I say they're relevant
Old memories in England
They're not gone, I will cherish them
In Canada, in forests fighting grizzly's like the revenant
Shit MC's around and now the levels have been lowered
There has to be some talent out, it has to be discovered
While I'm spitting, might get sore throat but that won't be a bother
Zoot, one hand, lemsip in the other
Not expecting many things from life as long as I live comfy
Stress has played a big part of my life, I guess it must be
That you've never seen the hate in peoples eyes
The hate that I've seen, you don't know how many times I've heard
Fuck out of my country
At first yeah, that was hard
Tore me to bits
Staying up all night
Turned into shifts
Recycling plant was work, it was boring and shit
Had to dash that out like roach thats burning your lip
You see me flying coast to coast and I don't like to follow orders
Moved so much, got rid of all my shit so not a hoarder
Been through so much shit I won't be backed up in the corner
I will find my own way out, I've got experience hopping borders
Just start doing and stop dreaming
Give your life some meaning
You did not thing that I've got it
Look how looks can be deceiving
Rocket going up and I'll be smashing through your ceiling
Always low on money like they're charging me for breathing
Got some fire in my system like the fire I've got written
Started spitting I can show you all what you've been missing
All you can do is listen, the levels they have risen
Acting like this skinny Polish kid has never had it in him
See me all these days and now you know that I've been dreaming
Took a couple years now I've got something to believe in
Had to leave my home too many times
You know that's not appealing
Lorry full of bullshit, I'm the one thats steering
Feeling dead, been awake for time but staying still in bed
It's a threat, It's not healthy with this mess thats in my head
Not cashing cheques, somehow I'm still living in this debt
Had a chance to go see friends but chose to stay inside instead
Sat there in a garage as I'm running out of courage
And I do this thing whenever I just feel like I can't manage
Swear to god it feels like magic, got me feeling savage
Pouring out my heart because my life is looking tragic
I've got to pull the lever, all the shit that I endeavour
Mum knows somethings wrong
I don't know what to tell her
Truly breaks my heart, I've got to make a start
There's no aces up my sleeve as I was scared to draw a card