Settled Up
Take three
I settled into myself nicely now
Settled up and I'll see myself out
I've got a fast car that I'd like to wreck
A weight on my mind breaking my neck
I get nervous, I get pissed off
And I can't seem to take the pressure off
Took me out in the glory of my weakness
Took a chance for a moment to feel reckless
Couple weeks and it starts sinking in
A couple months and I start to lose it
My head is down and my mind's not where I left it
My body's on the ground waiting to be lifted
I heard the calls but you know that I can't listen
So I shut it off when you tell me what I'm missing
You won't understand I've had it all mapped out
I'm pouring drinks when everybody's passed out
I want a simple change to rearrange and make it okay
Wanna to close my eyes and make these nightmares all go away
Wanna feel what I believe like I'm living it
Goin' to practice what I preach so I'm not full of shit
Too much thinking in these night sweats from these dying fires
My mind is burning, consumed by my wild desires
Learnt to love, what it takes, what I take from it
A balanced heart gives me the solid ground to understand it
Use it to remedy and make me more self-aware
How to contain what drives me and why to care
I took some time you know would think I've had enough
There's a time and place to grind it out and shut up
Settled into myself nicely now
Settled up and I'll see myself out