Directing my illusive state
Pouring dirt on my clean slate
Robbing myself of a steady heartbeat
Sipping whisky off the floor
Close the curtains, lock the door
Lost in my self abuse, nothing to hold onto
I've seen this all before
I just keep recreating
The part of me that's breaking inside of me
And I just can't seem to let it go
I can't seem to let it go
On nights when I'm alone
I keep pulling in the side of me
That's destroying my soul
How do I fill out the emptiness?
It's pulling me a side
I've been ruining my life
I tried taking mine
But I can't even seem to get that right
I swear i only show the side of me
That's been stained
I keep on fighting and I'm trying
But it's all the same
Flooded in emotions
I hold on to keep me frozen
But the ice always seems to break
On nights when I'm alone
I keep pulling in the side of me
That's destroying my soul
How do I fill out the emptiness?
It's pulling me a side
I've been ruining my life
I tried taking mine
But I can't even seem to get that right
'Cause I can't seem to get it right
The many times I went to put myself to sleep
To wallow
Wallow in the clouds
So why do I feel like I don't belong. Because I don't?
Am I stranger to this body I own?
Oh, It's such a heavy feeling
The nights become a phase
Stuck in thoughts so filled with hate
Is it why I feel like I don't belong here
I feel the weight of the world on my chest so bad
Crushing my cavity to let in the rats
I've been waiting for the crows to
Clean me dry to the bone of all the sorrow
On nights when I'm alone
I keep pulling in the side of me
That's destroying my soul
How do I fill out the emptiness?
It's pulling me a side
I've been ruining my life
I tried taking mine
But I can't even seem to get that right