I'll live alone and die alone, I'm on my own
It's my time, I wanna die, I have no hope
Put a bullet through my mind, right through my skull
Cuz I know I won't survive, I'm goin' ghost
Shawty ran away, she left like adios
I'm a stranger in this world, nobody knows
I'm the feelings that you hide that no one shows
I'm a master of disguise without a soul
And I'll be that way 'til I fade away
Gettin' fucked up, love drunk everyday
I take anythin' to numb the pain away
I just can't imagine any other way
Stuck in this shadow of mine
In this asylum, I'm losin' my mind
Everythin' changed in the dead of the night
I'm sick of hidin' and tellin' them lies
I swear this rhyming be savin' my life
And y'all could tell I'm on my way down
Cuz every time I get back up, I'm on the same ground
There's no point in wakin' up if we're not in the same house
There's no point in wakin' up if we're not in the same house
I made everybody cry, I'm the worse, I'm not the same as you
You see this pain inside my eyes,
This shit real, I'm not the same as you
Do you know what it's like when everyone's afraid of you?
Do you know what it's like when everyone keeps blamin' you?
When you look up to the sky, I hope I'm your favourite memory
When I'm way up in the sky, I just pray that you remember me
And I gave you all my love just so you could throw it back
And now I lost it all whatever happiness I had
I was lyin' to myself, I couldn't keep my other half
I mean what did I expect, I've always hid beneath the mask
Always hide for no reason, I would die for her feelings
Do you hide in my demons, suicide, I'm conceded
Do or die, I'm not breathin', I can't lie, I'm defeated
Only nightmares, no dreamin', now I'm chopped up in pieces
Everyone wonders what made me this way
Nobody wonders if I am okay
When I was growin' up, I was afraid
Owed them so much and then now I'm insane
I feel like I get in everyone's way
Every night I feel like runnin' away
Every night I feel like diggin' my grave
Every night I feel like diggin' my grave
My heart is broken, I'm dead inside
Forgive the feelings, I'm gettin' by
Don't look in my eyes, there's some dread inside
Don't look in my mind, there's a rainy sky
I'm always fakin' a smile
I'm always livin' my life in denial
Runnin' in circles, my head always spirals
I'm suicidal, It's not just my style, for real
Thirteen bases, just workin' it all
I'm stressed and I'm smokin' the perilous clouds
I love when I'm high, but it hurts when I'm down
My spirit is gone, it'll never be found
Fuck 'em, I know they gon' hate on me
I'm used to it, that's how it's always been
I never fit in, I'm a lonely kid
Cursed by your gods, I'm like holy shit
Everyday it's non stop suffer 'til my heart drops
Drownin' all my dark thoughts, all I see is stars drop
Everybody stay bad, lookin' with a plain mask
I stay with the stain glass, shatter when the waves crash
30 on my waistband, I'ma make it bang bang
Wanna make my brain splat, that ain't no mistake then
I could never change that, nothin' to replace that
I could never change that, nothin' to replace that
I'll live alone and die alone, I'm on my own
It's my time, I wanna die, I have no hope
Put a bullet through my mind, right through my skull
Cuz I know I won't survive, I'm goin' ghost
Shawty ran away, she left like adios
I'm a stranger in this world, nobody knows
I'm the feelings that you hide that no one shows
I'm a master of disguise without a soul