I keep lookin' at myself in the mirror
Hopin' it will change
And I keep wishin' for a brand-new body
That I didn't have to blame
I'm seein' every flaw like a failure
I'm using every cure like a savior
Like tryna build a church out of all my hurt
When it really needs grace
I gave all my time to nothin'
I focused on who I was not who I'm becomin'
My fears, they took up space
My eyes couldn't look away
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate
Half a bottle of red just before bed
Is the only way I dream
Before I rеally wake up
The first thing I touch is a button on a screen
I'm not guilty of leavin', not stickin' around
I'm guilty of stayin' and just chеckin' out
Yeah, I kept my head down and really missed out
On what's in front of me
'Cause I gave all my time to nothin'
I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin'
My fears, they took up space
My eyes couldn't look away
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate
Why do the lies feel like the truth?
Why do I do the things I do?
Why do I fight so hard to keep my heart empty?
'Cause I gave so much time to nothin'
I focused on who I was, not who I'm becomin'
My fears, they took up space
My eyes couldn't look away
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate
I didn't even realize (realize)
I didn't even realize (realize)
I didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate
Didn't even realize I worshiped what I hate
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Didn't even realize, no (ooh-ooh-ooh)
Didn't even realize, didn't know (ooh-ooh-ooh)
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Mmm, yeah (ooh-ooh-ooh)
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